Spain, 2018 / 98 min. / Color
Ainhoa Mata Juanicotena was born into a family that filmed, recorded and photographed their daily life for many years.

In her adolescence, at the end of the eighties, Ainhoa began to write  about things she did not want to tell anyone. Her diaries, that she kept until her death, describe a woman different from the one that her relatives and friends had known. Intimate journals, that reveal an infinity of themes related to the female experience, which  other women have written about throughout history. No matter the geographical or temporal distance, issues, sensations and moods converge.

Ainhoa, Yo no soy esa (Ainhoa, that’s not me) is also an alternative chronicle to the official history of the Spain of the nineties, told through the diaries of a woman.


Script and Direction: Carolina Astudillo Muñoz
Producers: Carolina Astudillo Muñoz / Belén Sánchez
Editing: Ana Pfaff
Assistants Editor: Elena Imaz / José Nicolás
Image Súper 8: David Domingo / Paola Lagos
Image HD: Ivan Piredda
Music: La Musa
Testimonies: Patxi Juanicotena Mata, Esther Carrillo, Lluís Subirós y Dave Roca
Voices: Isabel Cadenas Cañon / Carolina Astudillo Muñoz / Maithë Chansard
Sound: Jordi Ribas / Isolé División Sonora
Sound Mix: Alejandra Molina
Color Correction: Ana Izquierdo
With the support of ICEC, Institut Ramon Llull and ALMU



  • Best Documentary. DocsValencia  (Section Panorama. Valencia, Spain. 2019)
  • Grand Jury Award. Escales Documentaires (La Rochelle, France. 2018)
  • Biznaga de Plata for Best Documentary at Festival de Málaga Cine Español (Spain, Malaga. 2018)
  • Special Mention of the Jury International Feature Film. DocumentaMadrid (Official Selection. Madrid, Spain. 2018)
  • Best Sound. DocumentaMadrid (Official Selection. Madrid, Spain. 2018)
  • CIMA Award for Best Editing. Alcances. Festival de Cine Documental (Cádiz, Spain. 2018)



  • DocsValencia (Section Panorama. Valencia, Spain. 2019)
  • Encuentro Latinoamericano de Cine de No Ficción  (Arequipa, Perú. 2019)
  • DocMontevideo (Montevideo, Uruguay. 2019)
  • Pesaro Film Festival (Focus Spagnolo. Pesaro, Italia.2019)
  • Casa de Colón (Cycle Colón Cinema. Las Palmas de Gran Canaria, España. 2019)
  • Festival Cinematográfico Internacional del Uruguay (Montevideo, Uruguay. 2019)
  • Cinema Truffaut (Cycle La Volta. Girona, España. 2019)
  • Festival de Cine Iberoamericano Ojo Loco (Grenoble, France. 2019)
  • Coloquio Internacional: Genre et Images (Lyon, France. 2019)
  • Filmoteca de Murcia (Murcia, Spain. 2019)
  • Palacio de Condes de Gabia (Cycle Mirando a nosotras ¡Ni un paso atrás! Granada, Spain. 2019).
  • Tempo Documentary Festival (Stockholm, Sweden. 2019)
  • Sala Berlanga  (Cycle Fundación SGAE Diario de Memoria y Cine Madrid, Spain. 2019)
  • Festival Internacional de Cine IBAFF (Murcia, Spain. 2019)
  • Museo Reina Sofía (Madrid, Spain. 2019)
  • Numax (Santiago de Compostela, Spain. 2018)
  • Sala K (Santiago, Chile. 2018)
  • Transcinema (Official Selection. Lima, Peru. 2018)
  • Universidad Diego Portales (IV Seminar of Documentary Cinema FIDOCS/UPD: Things of Life and Archive. Santiago, Chile. 2018)
  • Jeu de Paume (Cycle Le Corps et le lieu as part of the exhibition about Ana Mendieta Le temps et l’histoire me recouvrent. Paris, France. 2018)
  • Nahia Film Fest (Granada, Spain. 2018)
  • Filmoteca de Andalusia (Cordoba, Spain, 2018)
  • Antofacine (Official Selection. Antofagasta, Chile. 2018)
  • Márgenes (Official Selection. Madrid, Spain.2018)
  • Premios Rizoma (Finalist. Madrid, Spain. 2018)
  • Mostra de Dones (Conegudes -també- a casa. Catalonia, Spain. 2018)
  • Filmoteca de Pamplona (Navarre, Spain. 2018)
  • Escales Documentaires (Official Selection. La Rochelle, France. 2018)
  • Festival Internacional de Gijón (Ficx. Plus. Section Women Directors of the other Spanish Cinema. Gijón, Spain. 2018)
  • Festival Internacional de Cine de Valdivia (Official Selection International. Valdivia, Chile. 2018)
  • Alcances. Festival de Cine Documental (Official Selection. Cádiz, Spain. 2018)
  • FIDBA (Buenos Aires, Argentina. 2018)
  • Sala Berlanga (Selection Berlanga. Madrid, Spain. 2018)
  • Session Teorema Cine Zumzeig (Barcelona, Spain. 2018)
  • First Documentary Film Exhibition of Melilla (Melilla, Spain. 2018)
  • D’A Film Festival  (Section Un impulso colectivo. Barcelona, Spain. 2018)
  • DocumentaMadrid (Official Selection. Madrid, Spain 2018)
  • Festival de Malaga Cine Español (Documentary Official Selection. Malaga, Spain. 2018)